A few years ago, the Lord began maturing in me a servant’s heart. I didn't always enjoy having a servant’s heart...but I have discovered a love for serving others in vast capacities that I didn't know before. I love how the Lord works in so many different corners of my heart...growing me into what He envisioned from before my conception. When I yield, His strength is made perfect and His perfect will can be walked out in my life.
"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!" Psalm 139:13-17
I have always been someone who prays for others if they asked, but my prayer life has not been my strength. I can dive into God’s Word for hours, sing worship songs until I can longer sing; I can even minister to others’ needs with little effort or complaining. As for Prayer…well, I've always had to work at it. Don’t get me wrong. I pray every day. I pray with and for my husband and children. I pray if a hardship arises. I praise the Lord in prayer for His gracious provisions…but I have never been what I consider to be a prayer warrior or an interceder.
I love that my past does not dictate my future!
I love that the Lord is stretching me in this area, for He has burdened my heart for many things and has given me opportunity to mature more in my prayer life. I love that He is teaching me to be someone who petitions Him for the needs of others, who seeks His face for even the small details and who longs to be in His company. I am finding myself before the throne of God in greater magnitude than any time in my life…and I am thankful. I still have much to learn and mature in...but that will come over the years of walking out daily this life of prayer.
I know I am still in the making; that God isn't finished with me quite yet. I know that God’s timing is perfect. I know that it IS possible to teach an “old dog new tricks.” PRAISE THE LORD!
'For I know the plans that I have for you,' declares the LORD, 'plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope. Jeremiah 29:11
It has been hushed here on the blog front, but only because my heart has been robustly before my King learning to pray more fervently. I usually find myself writing from what I am reading and studying…so I haven’t had much to say as of late. I pray the Lord will refresh some of the posts He put on my heart over the past month, that I did not get typed out. I am thankful to my gracious Heavenly Father who forgives disobedience and uses me nevertheless…even in my smallness, He can move.
I pray for you…my readers, even though I may not even know your name. I pray for God to transform your days, years and lives. I pray that He will “show up” and you will KNOW it is Him. I pray for you to have a zeal for His word, a compassion for His people and that you will be His hands and feet when He needs you.
So what is God doing in your life? Is He teaching you something new or refining something old? Won’t you share?
Love to you all in the name of Jesus!