“It is as hard to explain how this sunlit land was different from the old Narnia as it would be to tell you how the fruits of that country taste. Perhaps you will get some idea of it if you think like this. You may have been in a room in which there was a window that looked out on a lovely bay of the sea or a green valley that wound away among mountains. And in the wall of that room opposite to the window there may have been a looking-glass. And as you turned away from the window you suddenly caught sight of that sea or that valley, all over again, in the looking glass. And the sea in the mirror, or the valley in the mirror, were in one sense just the same as the real ones: yet at the same time they were somehow different - deeper, more wonderful, more like places in a story: in a story you have never heard but very much want to know. The difference between the old Narnia and the new Narnia was like that. The new one was a deeper country: every rock and flower and blade of grass looked as if it meant more.” C.S. Lewis, The Last Battle
This passage rings in my heart. It’s a calling from my Lord, my Savior, my King. I keep hearing Him say “Deeper in and Further Up.” People have asked me lately what God is doing in my life. All I can say is “He’s calling me deeper in, but I don’t know really what that means, but I am excited.”
Excited about the unknown.
Excited that I’m not forgotten by Him.
Excited to be used by Him.
Excited to go deeper, to love deeper, to follow Him into the deeper waters.
“Spirit lead me where my faith is without borders. Let me walk upon the waters, wherever you may call me. Take me deeper than my feet would ever wonder. Where my faith will be made stronger, In the presence of my Savior.” United, Oceans
My heart's cry. It’s also a very scary proclamation! My comfy self doesn’t really want to sing or say or pray these words. My flesh wars against my Spirit.
I want my Spirit to win.
Deeper in isn’t easy. Deeper in requires focus. Deeper in requires a reckless abandonment to my fleshly desires. The normal life I lead must not become my first love. Normalcy, comfort, the “American way” cannot become my god. I’m afraid that many days it is.
The errands, the laundry, school, jobs, family time, church…the routine of this life, and the comfort I find in its routine, overshadows what God is beckoning to my heart.
Deeper in. Further Up.
Deeper in. Further Up.
I can’t see what is directly ahead of me, for the trees are too thick. I don’t have a clue what is swimming below me, for the water is too deep. Yet I take one step out. One step. That’s were I start.
Scared. Exhilarated. Out of Control. Alive.
“There is great security in losing control.” Jennie Allen
I don’t know what God has on the horizon for me, for my marriage, for my children. What I do know is, I want to live with “normal” in the shadow of my God rather than God being overshadowed by “normal”. God doesn’t have to call me to the mission field in another country to have me impact the world for His name. I don’t have to sell all my worldly possession to touch the needy for His Glory. But…If He calls me, I want my first response to be “For no word from God shall be void of power…be it unto me according to thy word.” Luke 1:37-38.
For now, I will step out in obedience in the little things. It’s in the quiet, private times that I learn to hear him better. It’s in the quiet, private times my obedience is tested. It’s not what others can see me doing. My ministry may never be public. It may never be more than dinner and conversation with the people He has put on my heart. But if I am walking in obedience to what He has called me deeper in and farther up to, I am right where He wants me…Ready to move, ready to be stretched, available to go and love.
“It is as hard to explain how this sunlit land was different from the old Narnia as it would be to tell you how the fruits of that country taste…- deeper, more wonderful, more like places in a story: in a story you have never heard but very much want to know. The difference between the old Narnia and the new Narnia was like that. The new one was a deeper country: every rock and flower and blade of grass looked as if it meant more.”
Is He calling you deeper in and further up? Does Narnia look different to you?